Jan 2011

Well here we are in another new year gone by with no improvement which is exstremely frustracting.
Nothing has been doen on the swollen disc still there, still giving me pain and discomfort.

I finally went in to this gym called Gymophobics I kept walking past it in town but never went in.
So mid October last year I did and I have to say I am glad I took that step. I started off slow only going in twice a week and now I am three times a week which I feel is a little to much as at the end of the week I am in so much pain where I spend the morning in bed till the pain killers work.

I am still not losing weight so this friday I am off to see someone at the hospital to find out why.
I am doing a 9 day food diary but looking at it nothing there I can see that is making me stay put or even put on. I have been eating loads of fruit which has helpped me to go to the loo most days better than it used to be.

I think this year I am more focus on losing my weight than I have been in the past. As this year we both want to try to have a baby. But I have a long way to go but I am aiming for Aug.

This tursday I have my first gym assessment since joining to see how I am doing and also have weight and measurements done. I am just feeling so low at the moment I don't think its like everyone says its this time of year. I think its more the fact its been 4 years now since all my problems began and that time I am still over weight.

Life is good I can't complain about that really I have a wonderful husband who gives me so much love and support. I just want to give something back by having a baby.
I keep dreaming about it I find myself on baby websites looking at things and have pictures of my friends baby on our fridge she has also been great sending me these to help me get there.
A little reminder of the reasons why I am doing this.