Mid August 2010

I don't why but today I felt like I had to write a new post.
We have at last signed up to new doctors which is great as now I don't have to collect my medication from my old one which is miles away. I had to have a health check and we all know what they involve yep you guessed it being weighed. This was the bit I was dreading ever since I had that injection my weight has just gone up and up and not back to where is was before it.

So the nurse asks me to step onto the scales after measuring how tall I am .
Am stepping onto the scales and she then says OK step off now puts my weight in to the computer with the rest of my info. Then wham straight in to ask about my weight. I already tell her I know I am overweight and yes my condition could be connected to it.
Explained to her what treatment and advice I was getting from my hospital but it wasn't for long as the dietitian I was seeing was leaving to have a baby and said I could see the new person taking over from her. I was really comfortable with her and didn't want to see someone else.
This really upset me and so it set me back.

So when this nurse was talking about the things I need to do I was just so fed up I already know what I need to do am doing it but the weight is not going back down.
I can't do much exercise as it really is painful in all parts of my back and legs.

I try and walk into town at least once or twice a week and use my tram pet I got. This was one of the equipments I used in physio session so thought I would try and keep that up.

I am really getting fed up with my weight and myself for letting myself get like this.
Today I found out another friend of mine is having a baby. All I keep hearing is people having babies or just had them and I feel so jealous I guess is the word to describe my feelings to the news. I so long to have a baby my husband and I were going to try after our 1st wedding anniversary but as that's 3 weeks away I can't see this happening.

I guess hearing the news of friends having babies has sort of made me really think that I can have one to but I have to do the work to get myself prepared for pregnancy. Only I can do this.
Am going to join back at my old gym after the school summer holidays as its in a hotel it will mean things might be a bit quieter and less children in the pool as its not very big.
So this will my 1st step into getting myself sorted out. I don't want to have more surgery but I know one day I might have to have the pro laspes disc removed. I just can't believe this has happened again all the same pain is back but is under control with pain meds but I hate being this way having someone clean me up when I have problems going to the loo and sleepless nigths are getting worse and worse I really can't remember a night where I didn't sleep right through.
So we are going to be saving for a new bed to see if that helps.

Well nothing more I can think of right now to add but am glad I did type a new post as I do feel a little better oh and another thought that got me back here was in the new weightwatchers magazine this month someone blogg their weight lost journey and she lost 9 stones from doing it so this is what I hope to achieve.