So I put that behind me and got on with week 7 well I stayed the same but I have changed my weigh in days now and I was weighing in 2 days early. So will go to the gym tomo and see if I have lost any. But I feel I will be disappointed. I have developed a really bad habit of storing roses chocolates in the cupboard and when ever his family get to me I go and eat I feel good eating it but then i feel bad. I need to focus on me and stop worrying about everyone else or letting things get to me. It just would be nice for his parents not forgetting they also have a son who is taking a huge step in his life getting married. But his sisters always seems to win them over as she has given birth to their first grandchild. Nothing matters anymore. I don't even talk to them unless they come to me and its not about the wedding but to give me the low down on his sister and baby.
I feel like saying so many things to them like we need help please would you for once listen when I talk about the wedding especially when you have asked how things are but then go straight to talking about his sister as I just said her name about her dress and its her again.
When we have children if we can that is and they start to take an interest in their sons life and mine they can think again. I will not be ringing everyday giving them the low down on what my baby has done or is not doing. I really don't know how I will handle the situation if and when it happens as I am so angry with them now. My mum has gone out of her way helping with the wedding and paying huge sums of money to help us. They are more interested in whether or not to get a WII or PlayStation and blue ray.
Think this is why my weight is up and down with the stress on in laws.
But I am choosing to marry Andy not for his family he is the most important thing in my life but one thing I would like to see is him standing up to his family when they joke or put him down all the time. It drives me crazy its like he is the youngest and not the eldest which is he and a good 4 years older but his sister to me seems the golden child who got married first and now produced the first grandchild.
Time to wake up and relies you have a wonderful son who is caring and so supportive my rock.
My life would be so numb without him by my side and making sure I am teken care of.
He is not worried about my illness and the awful habits i have that has beome from it.
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