September 2012

Wow 7 months since I last was here have to say it has been a busy year with tests and hospital appointments.

I have had the bladder tests and been told I have stress incontinence and been given tablets to stop the leaking. I was put on 5mls but they weren't helping so when I had my check up 4 months from the tests they increased it to 10mls. I gave it a go and sadly that worked too well I was finding it hard to wee. So I have now gone back to 5mls. I would rather wee than not at all. I have been used to wearing pads now for 5 years and I shall carry on with that as well as doing pelvic floor exercises.

I am now back at living well ok its a good hour on the bus and then to collect my car from hubby's work but I have enjoyed being back managed to get back to swimming an hour till the buses were being late I stopped going and due to this I put on weight. I had a fall about 6 weeks ago and went to A&E nothing broken just had a badly sprained right ankle which hasn't healed. Its painful to walk on and that was the leg supoorting my left leg so waslking now is even harder.

I have a walker and wheelchair the walker is great not used the wheelchair as can't get it out of the flat. Now that is another thing to add had a report done on my living accommodation  my OT and the flat is no longer suitable as I find it hard to get my walker or wheelchair out. As we have a huge step up into the flat.

So we filled a form out for the council had to appeal for them to understand my condition and that I need to move and need a 2 bed ground floor or bungalow. I have a carer in everyday which is great to some time getting used to someone doing things for me that wasn't my husband. But it has taken pressure of him we don't argue as much now he can relax when I am home alone knowing someone is popping in to help me getting washed shower and dressed and help with breakfast. It has been a learning thing about what I can and can't really do.

Am now waiting to hear if we have been successful in bidding on a flat close to where hubby works.
I really do hope the will consider us for it but we have only been on the list for a bout 3 months and I know there are loads of other people who will be bidding on the flat. So I just keep praying that we will get it.

No news on my dog for the disabled only that I past the medical and awaiting an appointment to see them. Also waiting to hear back from the DLA people as I have had to renew mine and hope it doesn't take to long as I can order my new car in November.

No luck on getting pregnant that could be down to my weight so being back at living well and back in the gym part doing it slowly and only what I can do without hurting myself. But I managed it the other day felt really good with myself. So I have upgraded my membership to full time so I can go at weekends now and go just before hubby finishes work. So more flexibility in when I can go.

Well not much else to say back at the hospital for check ups in November I do have another disc gone on my right side but the Dr says the op my work but it may not its only 50/50 so I said no don't want another op with those odds.

Trying to keep busy made some wedding invitations for a friend and now working on my old projects now. I need to keep busy as that's when I eat is from borden .

Will try and keep this going reading back from the beg is quite scary as I am still not better and won't be my Dr did say if the nerves were going to grow back they would of done by now.

So time toe focus on getting pregnant and losing weight so I can.

Had an amazing weekend a few weeks back after my family cam back from OZ they were away for 6 weeks and had missed them all especially my niece. Week after they got back we had a family get together for my sisters 40th and my cousins as well so a joint do. Was really pleased they both liked the chocolate tree and retro bomb from Chocadoodledo can be found on facebook.

Feb 2012

Well I have a huge set back its now 5 years on and I am still seeing drs had an Mri scan Monday was bloody tight getting in as caused my left arm 3 days to recover as had both my arms above my head for 30mins. I have to wait 2 weeks for results just hope after all that they find something and also why am I still in pain. I have been put on morphine now can't do the gym as walking is painful and hard even though  they have changed my programme but its just to hard and I get home in pain especially if its cold and damp.

Also I have 2 bladder tests one called a Cystoscopy and bladder pressure test.
My weight has gone up which is not  great as this year we want  to have a baby. Time is running out for us I turn 34 this year and feel this will be our only chance if we leave it any later it might not be first tme it could take a few goes.

I am focus with losing weight but what can I do if i can't work out this is why I have put on.

Jan 2012

Well here we are another new year 2012 its going to be a busy year for the uk with the games and the queens diamond jubilee. But that aside we are now in my 5th year with CES and its not good news I have seen my Dr at Coventry uni hospital was there for 20 mins had many questions for him. He was shocked to learn it took them 3 months to find out what was wrong with me and to operate. He checked my legs and movement and then my reflexes on my knees but nothing and then said put your knee on the chair so he could try on my feet but nothing. 


He said 5 years on if I was to recovery I would have some nerves but he said but checking they are dead and won't grow back.
I sort of knew that would be the case but I wanted another Drs opinion. I am waiting for an MRI to see what is going on then look at pain management as he doesn't want to risk operating on me due to my weight but also he said it won't mend the problem as I have long term damage. 


I am not looking forwarded to my scan as before I had open ones at Shirley Oaks Hospital in Croydon and Coventry Uni doesn't I have just emailed my Dr asking if I can go to them as I would feel much more at ease and after having 3 done I know the staff and my husband was able to come in with me and chat to me